Life Is Still OK

Just found out some bad news yesterday. For 2 weeks I was hoping it wouldn't be so.... but...

That's life.

I was bummed yesterday but somehow after the initial shock, I was very relieved. Paul took me out to lunch and it was very nice and it relaxed me. Then I bought myself a book as an escape, that was a pretty good idea if I may say so, I really did get into it. Two very anxious weeks were just two weeks too long. Now it's something I have to deal with and live with. I thought I was going to be sad for a long time and I was prepared for that. After Cody died last year, I'd been feeling down more often than I liked. I'd finally found peace in the last coupla months. I thought this news would just make me feel the same way again if not worse. This morning, I woke up not even thinking about it. Strangely, I am feeling OK, so much better than I thought I would be. Busy with finishing up the sweater today made me not even thinking about it all that much. Unlike what I'd expected, life is still OK.

I don't know what it all means. Well I know what I have to deal with, but I have a funny feeling that this may help me sort out my life a bit better and appreciate the people in my life. Yesterday holding Paul's hand at the beach, I just felt so loved and grateful that he is in my life.

I've been working on a simple sweater for the last week and half, and I finished it today. It didn't turned out exactly the way I wanted (kinda like life, eh) but I still like it and I still think it's pretty nice.

I just got Netflix since the summer vacation began. With all the free time I have I've been watching a lot of movies. That's also why I wanted a simple (mostly st sts) knitting so I could watch the movie more than just listening to it.
Here it is:

Pattern: My own design
Yarn: Elann Limited Edition Lana Pura
Needles: #4